Weekly Reading, thru April 28th

This week has been a whirlwind of personal and professional changes.  Talk about major upheaval.  Wonder what next week looks like!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall Influence:  IX of Wands

Challenges are coming, but you are ready.  Take a deep breath, calm down, and don’t let the anxiety or stress overwhelm you.  Not everything can be solved by you, so focus on what you can change.

Work:  VII of Wands

You’ll come out on top in competition.  Projects should be moving along (finally). If you ever wanted to be self-employed, now is the time to do your research.  This is especially true with Pluto just entering retrograde.

Love:  The Magician

You’ll be reaching previously unexplored levels.  New energy, or new people, are coming.  Progression and a return of strength are also part of this card.

Play:  The Sorceress

Trust your gut – it’s usually right.  New surpises will pop up.  Make yourself aware of what’s going on around you.   Now is no time to be oblivious!

On Love and Ancestors

​Photo: Sierra City, CA cemetery.  Home to many of my ancestors.

Previously, I had never understood ancestor worship/honoring.  Throughout my life it had seemed somewhat backwards of a concept.  To ask for assistance, or revere/recognize, ancestors in my pagan practice that were, very likely, of a different religious belief.  Why am I asking for guidance from my Catholic ancestors (of which there were many)?  Why would my desires be something they would care to lend their energy to?  How could I even expect a Catholic soul to respond to a pagan calling?  Wouldn’t they be abhorred to discover their great-great-great-great-great-great-great-granddaughter was a witch?!?!

Then, as usual, perspective came in a life-changing moment.

Then, my dad died.  The day before Christmas Eve.

My dad lived with me and my husband, and was fully-functional and able to care for himself.  He knew my beliefs and found them interesting, and never spoke a word against or to try and convert me.  He died very suddenly or a heart attack, in our home.  The home I had grown up in and my parents had transferred to my name when I became an adult.  The home my husband and I still live in.  We came home from work and found him on the floor in his favorite spot – cutting up strawberries, one of his favorite foods.

I have been a “Daddy’s Girl” since I could breathe.  While my mother and I have a few pleasant memories, my dad and I did EVERYTHING together.  Theme parks, large and small events, pony rides, trips to the park (with or without the dogs), sneaking with him to work for the day (construction on empty homes for sale), even learning to build with my two hands and how to fix cars.

I had never been without him.  My world fell apart.  I honestly don’t have much more than a few spotty memories from the 4 months that followed.  When I finally came out of my funk sometime in April, it was just in time for his birthday.  Just one of many struggles in “the year of firsts” that happens the first year without someone who was always there.

So, why am I rambling, you ask?  What does this have to do with the original question, you ask?

My father was born Catholic, and died a born-again Christian.  Seriously, the church PAID for his ENTIRE memorial service we held in their chapel.

And then there was the lightbulb moment. 

My father and I are connected, irrevocably, forever, by the love of a father and a daughter that we shared.  Religion, bias, opinions, lifestyle – none of it mattered.  We are still connected.  It felt odd not to reach out to him; even wrong on some level.  I’m not saying this is true for everyone, but it is certainly true for me.

And if I feel that way with my father, not all the rest of them?  If the quote says “You are the result of the love of thousands” (Linda Hogan) then why should I not try to touch them? 

So I did.

Why did I not reach out sooner?  What did I have to lose from trying?  Why had I been so sure they wouldn’t answer?  Why did I not understand, no matter how many articles I read or people I spoke to?  Why had this concept been so difficult for me?

I wonder what was I afraid of.

Weekly Reading, thru April 21st

This has been a hard week.  Between that crazy full moon and ALL OF THE RETROGRADE PLANETS!  Seriously, I’m about ready for some direct energy at this point.  Mercury retrograde feels like a train hit me this time.

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall Influence:  God of Bones

A positive new beginning!  You have reason to be upbeat and hopeful about your future.  Something new and good is coming.  Now is a good time to explore your beliefs and try something you may have been too scared to attempt.

Work:  The Magician

New work may be coming your way.  This can be landing that new position, a new major project on the horizon, or even a promotion.  Either way it points to good fortune with funds.  People will see you; making sure you are polished and ready for the spotlight is a good first step.

Love:  X of Bones

Material wishes will be met and your security affirmed.  You have so much to be thankful for, make sure it is not taken for granted.

Play:  VIII of Plumes

We must be open to defeat if we ever plan to win.  Overcome your fear of failure or embarrassment.  If you need help ask for it.

April Full “Awakening” Moon

Three more nights of no sleep! Welcome to the full moon in Libra!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

(1)  What is ending:  Six of Cups

Put the nostalgia to bed; it’s time to move forward.  Reinventing the old into something new and beautiful will help with that.  

(2)   What to keep:  Wheel of Fortune

Abundance and opportunity are here to stay until the new moon.  Be very careful you do not get overwhelmed.  Renegotiation is good during this time but be wary of pushing too far.  Be more wary of not pushing at all.

(3)  What personally affects you:  The Chariot

Control of your life, situations, moods, and thoughts.  Focus is on-point and should help to guarantee your success.

Also movement – both personally, for travel, and in life, such as moving or career change.

(4)   What is starting:  The Fool

GET SHIT STARTED! This is amazing for new beginnings, new chapter in your life.  Press ahead even if others cannot understand why.  Chances are you’ll come out on top.  This is typically a positive beginning but may include catalysts that are less than fun.

(5)  What to let go:  X of Swords

You should know by now where to place your trust.  Trust yourself, an don’t hang around staring so long at closed doors you miss the ones that open.  Rejection and attacks should be let go – but not forgotten lest we repeat them.  May include a break from a person, idea, or location that was highly toxic. 

(6)   What affects the world around you:  VI of Swords

Change.  Major changes.  Usually for the better.  But slow development.  Watch your dreams for clues.

 (7)  Lesson to learn:  IX of Pentacles

Good energy, wealth, and happiness – so share it! This applies to mundane and inner workings.  Things are going to get better and you should share this feeling with those around you.  You should seek and feel freedom during this time.  Don’t let fear or stress steal it from you.

Weekly Reading, thru April 14th

So a little birdy told me I missed last week.  I don’t even remember last week and I’m still exhausted from it.  So I’m going to pretend it never happened!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall influence:  VII Strength

Intent is a powerful tool, but power needs control.  Self confidence is high but once that passes the long-term commitment is all you’ll have to cling to.  Avoid large spontaneous purchases or plans.

Work:  VII of Stones

You will more than likely come out on top of competition and accomplish what you try.  Great time to do homework on self employment but be logical about what it will cost you.

Love:  Queen of Bones

The way to catch love is not to chase it.  Be available, but not desperate.  When the time is abundantly clear, grab onto it.  You have many things in your life worth loving, you don’t need to chase down more; trust yourself.

Play:  X Wheel of Fortune

Abundance and opportunity abound!  Go out and have fun!  Don’t let stress overtake you.

BONUS Guidance card: Time

Patience.  Time heals, and what it can’t heal, it conditions you to carry. The weight becomes lighter – I promise.

New Moon Reading – March

I always sleep so well in new moons.  My bed becomes this wonderful place I cannot stand to leave. It also makes getting up early for work REALLY HARD.

This reading done with The Wooden Tarot, my typical go-to deck these days.

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Ending:  VII of Plumes

The cheater in your midst will bugger off finally.   You’ll feel a little less like you’re under the microscope.

Continuing:  The Chariot

High spirits and movement forward!  Make sure you communicate your boundaries clearly to avoid over-reaching.

Starting:  V of Stones

You don’t have to this this alone – reach out for help of you need it.  Don’t try to do everything in your own.  Stay thankful to avoid falling into the trap of suffering. And remember, nothing lasts forever.

Be Aware:  IV of Stones

Be cautious of hoarding tendencies.  Look carefully at what you cling to and make sure it suits your needs.  Cutting that cord is terrifying, but sometimes necessary.  Be open to change.

Conscious Influence:  God of Plumes

Put fear in its place.  Feel the fear and do it anyway.  This is the time for a new beginning.  Your willpower is stronger than you ever imagined.  Don’t guilt yourself over cutting something out that no longer serves you or taking the leap towards a better place.

Subconscious Influence:  The Hermit

Self care is super important.  Take time to withdraw if it comforts you.  May require extra effort to stay connected.  Make sure your withdrawal puts you in a good place.

Weekly Reading, thru March 31st

Okay, so I’m late.  We kinda had a party and I kinda was distracted by some amazing silver tequila.  But no matter!

This week’s reading is from The TaRat!


Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall Influence:  The Fool

We gonna learn today!  Embarrassment may be unavoidable, but it doesn’t have to be bad.  New adventures and opportunity abound, if you put yourself out there and take the risk.  Time to start something – so get moving!

Work:  VIII of Pentacles

Work should be busy, but in a good way.  Order, organization, and time management skills should be at their peak right now.  Try not to feel overwhelmed.

Love:  Ace of Wands

Activity is revving up, whether in an existing relationship or looking for one.  Take care of yourself; you’ll need the energy!  New things are coming, or arriving, or looking for you.  Make it easy for them to find you.

Play:  IX of Wands

You should be bubbling with energy so put it to use!  Working with multiplicity should be a good thing, and you should be filled with ‘more’ of things.  Make sure they are good things.