April Full “Awakening” Moon

Three more nights of no sleep! Welcome to the full moon in Libra!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

(1)  What is ending:  Six of Cups

Put the nostalgia to bed; it’s time to move forward.  Reinventing the old into something new and beautiful will help with that.  

(2)   What to keep:  Wheel of Fortune

Abundance and opportunity are here to stay until the new moon.  Be very careful you do not get overwhelmed.  Renegotiation is good during this time but be wary of pushing too far.  Be more wary of not pushing at all.

(3)  What personally affects you:  The Chariot

Control of your life, situations, moods, and thoughts.  Focus is on-point and should help to guarantee your success.

Also movement – both personally, for travel, and in life, such as moving or career change.

(4)   What is starting:  The Fool

GET SHIT STARTED! This is amazing for new beginnings, new chapter in your life.  Press ahead even if others cannot understand why.  Chances are you’ll come out on top.  This is typically a positive beginning but may include catalysts that are less than fun.

(5)  What to let go:  X of Swords

You should know by now where to place your trust.  Trust yourself, an don’t hang around staring so long at closed doors you miss the ones that open.  Rejection and attacks should be let go – but not forgotten lest we repeat them.  May include a break from a person, idea, or location that was highly toxic. 

(6)   What affects the world around you:  VI of Swords

Change.  Major changes.  Usually for the better.  But slow development.  Watch your dreams for clues.

 (7)  Lesson to learn:  IX of Pentacles

Good energy, wealth, and happiness – so share it! This applies to mundane and inner workings.  Things are going to get better and you should share this feeling with those around you.  You should seek and feel freedom during this time.  Don’t let fear or stress steal it from you.

Weekly Reading, thru April 14th

So a little birdy told me I missed last week.  I don’t even remember last week and I’m still exhausted from it.  So I’m going to pretend it never happened!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall influence:  VII Strength

Intent is a powerful tool, but power needs control.  Self confidence is high but once that passes the long-term commitment is all you’ll have to cling to.  Avoid large spontaneous purchases or plans.

Work:  VII of Stones

You will more than likely come out on top of competition and accomplish what you try.  Great time to do homework on self employment but be logical about what it will cost you.

Love:  Queen of Bones

The way to catch love is not to chase it.  Be available, but not desperate.  When the time is abundantly clear, grab onto it.  You have many things in your life worth loving, you don’t need to chase down more; trust yourself.

Play:  X Wheel of Fortune

Abundance and opportunity abound!  Go out and have fun!  Don’t let stress overtake you.

BONUS Guidance card: Time

Patience.  Time heals, and what it can’t heal, it conditions you to carry. The weight becomes lighter – I promise.

New Moon Reading – March

I always sleep so well in new moons.  My bed becomes this wonderful place I cannot stand to leave. It also makes getting up early for work REALLY HARD.

This reading done with The Wooden Tarot, my typical go-to deck these days.

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Ending:  VII of Plumes

The cheater in your midst will bugger off finally.   You’ll feel a little less like you’re under the microscope.

Continuing:  The Chariot

High spirits and movement forward!  Make sure you communicate your boundaries clearly to avoid over-reaching.

Starting:  V of Stones

You don’t have to this this alone – reach out for help of you need it.  Don’t try to do everything in your own.  Stay thankful to avoid falling into the trap of suffering. And remember, nothing lasts forever.

Be Aware:  IV of Stones

Be cautious of hoarding tendencies.  Look carefully at what you cling to and make sure it suits your needs.  Cutting that cord is terrifying, but sometimes necessary.  Be open to change.

Conscious Influence:  God of Plumes

Put fear in its place.  Feel the fear and do it anyway.  This is the time for a new beginning.  Your willpower is stronger than you ever imagined.  Don’t guilt yourself over cutting something out that no longer serves you or taking the leap towards a better place.

Subconscious Influence:  The Hermit

Self care is super important.  Take time to withdraw if it comforts you.  May require extra effort to stay connected.  Make sure your withdrawal puts you in a good place.

Weekly Reading, thru March 31st

Okay, so I’m late.  We kinda had a party and I kinda was distracted by some amazing silver tequila.  But no matter!

This week’s reading is from The TaRat!

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Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall Influence:  The Fool

We gonna learn today!  Embarrassment may be unavoidable, but it doesn’t have to be bad.  New adventures and opportunity abound, if you put yourself out there and take the risk.  Time to start something – so get moving!

Work:  VIII of Pentacles

Work should be busy, but in a good way.  Order, organization, and time management skills should be at their peak right now.  Try not to feel overwhelmed.

Love:  Ace of Wands

Activity is revving up, whether in an existing relationship or looking for one.  Take care of yourself; you’ll need the energy!  New things are coming, or arriving, or looking for you.  Make it easy for them to find you.

Play:  IX of Wands

You should be bubbling with energy so put it to use!  Working with multiplicity should be a good thing, and you should be filled with ‘more’ of things.  Make sure they are good things.

The Oddness of Spirits

Settle in for a long one folks.  Hard to tell this story without some background.

I have always believed in ghosts and spirits.  Ever since I started talking to them when I was a lonely child.  Or tripped over an invisible dog laying in the hallway (a dog who had passed away 4 months earlier).  Or witnessed odd moving shadows that coalesced into almost a recognizable shape before drifting away.

As a child, I was never afraid.  I didn’t know to be.  Until the large tree in our yard fell, all activity suddenly stopped, and the house became “uncomfortable.”

We moved to a suburb from the big city.  New construction, no history to the home of the land.  The neighborhood was plastered squarely between two of the larger cemeteries in the area.  I didn’t think about it for the first few years.  I was 10; I didn’t think outside of myself much in general.

Then, life happened. And over the last 22 years I have learned the habits of my home:

  • The front bedroom has a shadow.  It sits in what I believe is a North-East-ish corner of the room.  When the room is full of furniture and lived in, it is shoved into a small space at the top corner of the room.   If the room is empty of furniture, it stretches.  It fills the whole corner.  And while it always feels like it’s just watching, this makes some people uncomfortable.  Others never feel that.  It is almost like it’s picky who it likes.
  • Spirits often are just “passing through.”  I have only felt this at places near graveyards.  I call them “visitors.”  They don’t feel like ghosts, or trapped spirits, or even like they’re haunting the home.  It feels genuinely like they are going somewhere, saw a house that attracted them, and poked their heads in to see what was up.  Asking them to leave is usually all it takes.  Sometimes they want attention, or the kids, to play.  But they never hesitate to move on within 24 hours or so.
  • The tripping over the dog thing is still happening.  It went away for a few years, but came back with a  vengeance.

Through it all, I always felt safe.  Protected.  This was my land, my home, and we were it’s people.  I made a point to stay connected.

Then, when I was 32, that same house now mine, my father who was living with us died suddenly and unexpectedly in the home.  We came home to find him likely less than an hour after.

My world fell apart.

When I started to be able to retain memory again a good 3 months later, I started to notice…things.  Things that were not normal.  You see, the “head” of the home had died, and he and I were connected over that space still.  The main guardian of the home, myself, was despondent and let all guards fall in mourning.  It was suddenly a very different home.

  • A large newer window cracked and spider webbed for no reason.  An insulated dual-pane window in California spring weather.
  • A glass shattered onto the floor in the kitchen.  With no one there to explain why.  And no idea where it had come from.
  • BUGS.  So many snails, slugs, and creepy crawlies getting into the home from who knows where.
  • Odd stains appearing on the carpet – no moisture, no smell, carpet still soft just VERY discolored.
  • My dog, who was 14 and my dad’s baby, started barking, growling, and snapping at nothing.  Now, we assumed since she was old that this was a mental issue.  It would not have been surprising; she was peeing the bed when sleeping with my dad and having other issues while he had been not feeling well the last few weeks.

Then, the icing on the cake.  

I walked out of my room at 6:30am towards the kitchen, carrying my sleepy puppy, to hear the front screen door slam open; loudly.  Like someone was running out of our door.  We have a main door with a security screen outside.  I walk past it to the kitchen.  The front door was still locked.  I think it’s weird, but ignore it.  I tell no one and fix it before my husband wakes up.

The next day, same process.  This time I SEE something run from the kitchen to the front door and outside.  I freak out.  The front door is completely unlocked.  But the screen door?  Locked.  I’m weirded out but, when I turn to the kitchen?  Every.  Cabinet.  Open.  Que panic attack.  This does not feel right.  I honestly thought someone might be robbing us and have a thing for kitchen utensils.  Again, I tell no one and fix it before my husband wakes up.

Next 3 days.  I wake up at 3-4 am because my dog has to go potty (she can’t jump from the bed but learned to wake me up).  I hear odd but not overly loud noises.  I know my home noises well after 22 years; this is not normal.  I let her out back, which walks me past the kitchen.  Yup; open fucking cabinets.  One time, the sink was running.  One time, the fridge door was cracked visibly open.  All of this feels…malicious.  Like when you know someone is watching you and their thoughts are not kind.  Like they’re biding their time and amused by your fear.  I calmly fix these things before going back to bed.  I tell no one.

The last day was the worst.  I came out to both front doors COMPLETELY OPEN.  We had been meticulous about locking our locks since the first few time.  Every cabinet open.  Water running.  All the lights on in the house.  I freak out and spill the beans to the husband about what I’ve been experiencing.  Then, I get angry.

I start to cleanse.  Chants, music, crystals, sunlight, oils, incense, charms, smudging, walking my property with an herbal mix for protection, burying witchbottles at the corners of my property.  ALL OF THE THINGS.  (Rusty nails are amazing for protective energy btw) Also cleaning – vacuuming, dusting, wiping, scrubbing, mopping.  My home, my land, my rules, MINE.

By noon, the house is mine again.  It feels….different.  Lighter.  Like it has never felt since I lost my dad.

The trouble goes away. My dog becomes AMAZINGLY better and improves like crazy.  I actually decide to go back to work after taking off a long time for mourning and trauma.  

It never comes back.  But the others remain, the visitors, the normal things.  And I feel like, connected to my dad now passed, the connection is stronger.  More powerful.  I feel stronger, and I feel what goes on around me more.

I never took photos, because that would feel like validation.  I still never tell anyone what happened; most people won’t believe me.  Until today.  It seemed like the right time.  And it was real – opinion won’t change that.  But damn if I ever want to experience it again.

Weekly Reading, thru March 24th

St.Patricks Day as a holiday still boggles my mind.  I’m still not sure what we’re celebrating or why everyone is green…

On to this week`s reading, courtesy of The Wooden Tarot!

Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

Counter-clockwise from the top: overall influence, work, love, and play.

Overall Influence: VI of Blooms

Feeling slightly nostalgic this week?  That’s fine, and can be fun, but remember you don’t live there anymore.

Work: Knight of Bones

Now is not the time to try a whole new process.  You need to appear dependable and even-tempered.  Mavericks are not likely to be desirable right now.

Love: XVII The Star

Generally hopeful.  Could be the realization of a goal or inspiration in what may have been a rough time.  Also expect new or fresh beginnings.  Could be a new relationship or a new phase in an existing one.  Let that breeze clear out the cobwebs and the stars shine down!

Play: VII of Bones

Time to reap what you sow, whether it was time, money, or energy.  Generally a positive thing, but choose wisely what you invest in.

March Full “Crow” Moon

I love and hate full moons.  They keep me awake better than energy drinks.  Problem is, I need to sleep to actually function at work.   Makes for interesting conversation the next day at least!

This reading is using my favorite moon deck, the Deviant Moon Tarot!

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Meanings of the cards included may be both traditional and intuitive.

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 (1)  What is ending:  Queen of Pentacles

The time has come to stop looking after other people’s physical needs and to reconsider what you are looking for in life.  To obtain it may require a battle for recognition.  Your limited vision must expand in order for your life to expand – take the chance!

Issuing involving a parent who cannot see that their child is growing up (trying to micromanage or care-take an adult child, for example) should be resolved before the new moon, or can lead to lager problems.

(2)   What to keep:  VII of Swords

Keep your plans and determination close.  You do you.  Let that individuality shine!  Set your goals and follow through.  Just be careful you don’t also keep the isolation and suspicion that also come with this card.

(3)  What personally affects you:  The Chariot

Control of your life, situations, moods, and thoughts.  Focus is on-point and should help to guarantee your success.

Also movement – both personally, for travel, and in life, such as moving or career change.

(4)   What is starting:  VIII of Cups

A change of situation; may positive or negative.  May mean new households and/or marriages.  Hopefully, these changes can be met without stress or strain.  Also allows for seeing and recognizing patterns.

(5)  What to let go:  Knight of Pentacles

Work, sleep, work, sleep; it’s time to break the habit.  Since it signified the work that goes into applying one-self, this may also signify, if you have been hunting, obtaining a job or promoting before the new moon.

(6)   What affects the world around you:  The Tower

Massive forces working around you, may end up disrupting the status-quo of the world around you.  Be conscious of what is happening and it may help you to avoid some serious unhappy events.  Tempers are sensitive, emotions may run high.  The Tower leads to some chaos before the change – it can be exciting, or terrifying.

You may be cut loose from a situation you are unhappy with.  It may be disorienting and unexpected, but new opportunities can await!

 (7)  Lesson to learn:  The Heirophant

Express your beliefs outwardly without fear or shame.  Be careful how much voice you give to your inner critic – that guy’s a jerk!  Do not be too quick to adhere to tradition – you may need to be able to bend slightly to survive.